When there's this horrible feeling inside of me I let it out through ridiculous statements, theories, poetry or catchy quotes. And when there's no pen and paper around, I use my phone! Since it has been there for at least, well probably, since I started this on August 2007, more than a year already I really have to delete it na.. I want to let it all go in memory of all the scratches and bruises I had from August 2007 to 2008. Oh, and don't be surprised if some are a bit weird, cheesy, annoying, dramatic slash emo slash senti, aggravating or gay. I guess I'm just that kind of person. Enjoy! (Whatever that means.)

*I am the wind. I cannot be seen but my presence is felt. Do you feel me?
(This was written because of my shyness and inferiority complex-ness. I like screaming with just my mind.)




*I am your shadow. I find it darn humorous that you seem to see me now. Did you finally turn on the light??
(Same as the one above.)




*Homosexuals are man's obvious evidences that they have a lack of self-contentment.
(I question myself all the time why I never feel satisfied, why I look all over the galaxy when the answer has always been in front of me..)




*Evidence makes people believe but if it is non-existent, then that is called faith.
(iBelieve.)




*When you expect the unexpected, does it mean that the unexpected becomes the expected? I'm seriously serious..
(Yes! I am the original author of this one. At least I think I am. I saw this Sterling notebook with so many logical quotes printed on its cover and one of its quotes included the aforementioned quote. I thought of that quote when I was in 4th year high school,probably on the third quarter of the school year. I saw the Sterling notebook one summer day before I started college. It completely shocked me! I mean, the words in the notebook were completely the same as to what I keyed in my phone. Well, except for the "I'm seriously serious part" because they didn't include it. To me, it's impossible to say that it's all a coincidence. And it has even spread through my college school too even though I never forwarded the quote to anyone in UPLB. Well, except those who are in my contact list. I sent it as as group message kasi. No, wait. I just realized. I forwarded this to Ate Roselle. She's included in my group message! I think I even remember that she group-messaged my quote too. Since she studies at UPLB, she might have been the one to spread it there. The heck. All I wanted to say is that if it's true that it really was Sterling's original quote, then boohoo to me. So I didn't think of it first afterall.. but I DID thought of it independently. Without any clue of its existence in this puny world. How brilliant of me then! (Nvm. I'm just probably depressed.) On the other hand, if it really wasn't Sterling's then please.. give some credit! Intellectual Property Rights people! It's hard enough to emote!! Whew. Mr. nerve just showed up. That wasn't very loooooooooong was it?)




*If only we could heal everything with a band aid..

.. then I'd buy you one.
(I wish someone would make some dramatic and touching line like this for me. Hehe.)




*All we have is..

.. a borrowed life.

So don't waste it.
(This realization was because of someone I know, but not really friends with. His name is Gel. I met him on the summer before 4th year high school. There was this science camp and we were on the same group, Uranium625, I think. Honestly, I didn't like him because I thought he was a major flirt. Haha. How judgmental of me. But the winds changed courses and I saw the different side of him, how so many people loved him and missed him sooo much.. and then I cried. Felt totally awful of course. He was supposed to graduate on the 27th of March, 2008 but it seems that God had different plans for him. He was cut short and experienced a very tragic death 19 days before he had the chance to finally take home his diploma. His dad is planning to build a “Gel Foundation” thingy because his dad wanted to "carry on the programs that Gel had dreamt of doing". His death was on provincial newspapers. Now that I've seen his side of the coin, I could say that he is a pretty big loss to the society. If you want to know more about him, just google Gene Noel Junatas or go to this link: http://www.visayandailystar.com/2008/March/14/topstory5.htm. He is an inspiration..)




*And if I was merely the person you needed,

.. I'd come right to you and hug you tight..

..and then cross out the word...

”merely”.




*You can't always count on me..

..i'm not a number.




*Do you believe in love at first sight?
I know I don't.
Because if it did exist, then how come when he finally noticed me, he never fell for me?
(Feeler, I know. Haha. Hey, it's my blog. Palag?!)




*It's too late for you to see
That it were supposed to be
You and me
'Coz now you've got somebody

And if I wanted you so badly,
I would've gotten you already.

-the explosion
(Especially dedicated to **** ****** but I guess that was long gone.)




*I act weird because I don't know how others see “normal”.



*Whenever my heart starts beating, I swallow my emotion. And then I don't feel anything again. No pain, no anger, no excitement, no nothing. I become ostentatious.




*Let them have all the guys...

..I never really cared for anyone anyway.
(The idea came from Celine Dion's song “Alone” which has a part that goes “I never really cared until I met you..” So, yea. I cut the “..until I met you..” part. Kudos!)





*I have been trying to learn everything and trying to be great in all things possible so I could be accepted but what I do not realize is that what I must really learn in life is the acceptance of rejection.
(Fear of rejection.. I'm trying to change that.)




*I really WANT to see each one of you smile..

..even if it means making a fool of myself.

If you could only see yourselves in the mirror..

..believe me, it's all worth it. ^_^
(I love making people laugh but sometimes it saddens me that I can't truly laugh with them. I don't really like making fun of myself. Who does?)




*It's boring to be everyone. It's uncool to be no one. It's tiring to be someone. Where do I go?
(On my social status..)




November 25, 2k8
*I feel so uninspired. My pen is but a feather unsharpened, out of ink.. blotting on my heart.. not a word spelled out.. Why? Is there anything or anyone in the world that can save a damsel in distress from Christopher Marlow's fate?
(I think I should just go back to reading books, noh?)




December 7, 2k8
*I had a bad dream.. about the guy that I once met before. About a guy with whom a friendship continues to bloom with because of texting. He texts me only after months have passed 'coz he'd say he'd been busy. Idc. Because when he does (text me), there's always this certain connection between us. A spark perhaps, as another might describe it.

Anyhow, it wouldn't be a nightmare if I wasn't gaga over him until now..but I am and it was.

Here's what happened:
After all the months that he'd stopped commenting on my friendster, finally (shockingly) did (comment). It was the worst comment ever and it contained a photograph. In the pic were three people. There was this girl on the left smiling eagerly (without a care in the world). He was there too, on the right-most showing off his dimpled-smile and then there was this girl in the middle. She was kissing him on the cheek! The girl in the middle was me.. kidding. Ouchies. So I figured he knew I liked him for commenting such a mushy comment to me!
(Wow. I forgot about this na.. No comment.)




December 20, 2k8
*Its not a sacrifice when it's not hard to let go.
(I don't get this much either.)


Side note: those with dates are the ones that I've saved on my new phone. There was this switching-of-phones event kasi. The ones that were saved on my old phone were immediately forwarded to my new phone nalang that's why they don't have dates (I didn't get to save them because I IMMEDIATELY deleted them). I don't want my parents or my older sister (who got my old phone) to know how emoish or senti or jerky I could be at times. Eeeeek! So I just tried to remember the original sequence of when I put them on my phone.

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Welcome 2009!
^.^